I Wish Somebody Told Me This Before I Relapsed

Read this if you feel like drinking again

Relapse is the shittiest feeling in the world.

You’ll be so disappointed in yourself. You’ll wake up soaked the next day, realizing you pissed the bed. You’ll make yourself so sick that you won’t be able to keep water down, let alone any food.

You’ll throw up right in front of your parents and your child as you’re all sitting outside trying to have a good time on a warm sunny day, because you’re hungover. You didn’t want anybody to know you drank and you tried to hide it but failed. Now your whole family knows because you can barely move and what other reason is there to feel this shitty?

A family member finds a beer in your room and you have to explain, “Yes it happened again.” Oh, the shame.

You wanted people to think you’re strong and be so proud of you for staying sober and now you imagine that they’re all thinking you’re a loser, a disappointment, an unfortunate soul, an asshole.

You’ll have the worst depression and anxiety which you hadn’t experienced since the last time you drank and before you thought you had quit for good. On the bright side, perhaps a reminder will do you well.